Sunday, January 31, 2010
I was 15 at the time when I thought I met the boy I was going to spend the rest of my life with but that all changed very fast.
Eight months into our relationship he cheated on me. I was devastated! I cried myself to sleep for nights. He was not only my boyfriend but my best friend, I never knew love could hurt so much until that day.
I loved him so much I forgave him. Nine months into our relationship I found out I was pregnant. But I wasn't disappointed because we both wanted to have a baby together. But he cheated again. He hurt me so bad I thought the only way I could keep him was to keep the baby. I was soon four months pregnant, my mom found out but worst of all was my dad found out too. I felt like I let them down.
I thought about everything and how stupid I was to think he was going to change and that he really loved me. I came to find out the best thing for me was abortion. It was the hardest decision of my life. I soon broke it off between me and him, he begged me to be with him, of course but I knew what was best for me and, yes, I loved him more than anything but I had to move on with my life and it hurt so bad.
Now I am 18 years old and he now has a baby by another girl, and I wonder all the time what it could have been like if I would have kept my baby and it hurts me everyday...
Posted by SoHraB FaROoQ at 6:58 PM
i gave you my heart and i lost my hope, i gave you my love and i almost lost my life. ~ I Lost Everything ~
Posted by SoHraB FaROoQ at 6:56 PM
Posted by SoHraB FaROoQ at 6:47 PM
To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful.A life with love will have some thorns, but a life without love will have no roses.Reject your sense of injury and the injury itself disappears.The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have.Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.The stupidest mistake in life is thinking the one who hurt you the most, won't hurt you again.The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.Love is unconditional, relationships are not.For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, It might have been.
Posted by SoHraB FaROoQ at 6:45 PM
But my family thinks I'm wrong. Only because of one thing. AGE. He is twenty-four years old. He has showed me things that I thought I would never find. But my dad thinks I'm wrong. I think we will be together for a long time. Even if my dad tries to keep us apart he can’t stop love and after I turn 18 he can’t do anything about it. My mom and dad have been divorced for years and that’s one thing that he has never really had is love. I think he is jealous because we have what he has always wanted. Love. He is deaf and abused me when I was little and I finally have someone to care for me and that makes him so angry. Rage is but mask for my shy fears. Yet I would die before I caused my companion pain.
I just hope he knows that no matter what my family tries to do to tear us apart I will never stop loving him. We have been together since I was 16. I might have to wait till I’m 18 to be with him but waiting only makes my love for him even stronger. Romance must have a language fit for feeling more than fits between the earth and sky.
Posted by SoHraB FaROoQ at 6:43 PM
A Man was polishing his new car. His 6 years old son picked up a stone & scratched lines on the side of the car. In anger, the man took the child's hand & hit it so many times, not realizing that he was using a wrench.
At hospital, the child lost all his fingers due to multiple fractures. When the child saw his father with painful eyes he asked " DAD when will my fingers grow back? "
Man was speechless and very much disappointed. he went back to car and kicked it hard. Devastated by his own actions, sitting in front of that car, he looked at the scratches. child had written " LOVE you DAD". The next day that man committed suicide!!
Anger and love have no limits, choose the love to have a beautiful & lovely life.
Posted by SoHraB FaROoQ at 6:41 PM